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[08 Sep 2005|04:12am] |
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Be My Escape - Relient K |
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Ha, yeah I realize it's EARLY in the morning, but I have time while getting ready for school, so I'm going to update about yesterday.
It was decades day and a lot of girls had 80's clothes on. Jessica dressed up really well. I wish I could re-do this week and stuff. Today is Twin day, and I don't have a twin. Ariel was my only candidate, but she is going to be twins with Shannon. I like highschool better than middleschool, but God, where are all my good friends? I feel like I have no one but Ariel.
And I have NO idea what I'm going to do today. I don't know if I should go with A.J. or not, or should I go alone? If I go with A.J., then Ariel might not want to go because I suddenly have a date. And even though we said we'd go alone, what if she changes her mind? If I had many good friends, then I would not have this problem. And I don't WANT to go with A.J., but I have no idea what Ariel wants to do or what we are going to do this weekend. I feel like shit.
In math we took our test. I HOPE and PRAY I got higher than a 65. I took a really long time on the problems, but some I had no clue about so I just marked 'b'. That was only on like 4 problems though. I am so worried about it.
And I hate where I eat lunch. The only reason I sit there is because of April and Chelsea. Those people are not my kind of crowd. Beth has my lunch period, but I don't want to go over to her and sit down like a loser. I don't even know who she sits with. I need serious help.
We went to the football field in 4th because Mrs. Knight had to go to the Homecomming practice. Show the homecomming girls where to walk. It was HOT and I wore a jacket, blue jeans, and tennis shoes. It was cold that morning.
I hate myself somedays, and then the next I will love me. It is so hard. I hate waking up in the morning because I get no sleep, going to school where there is always a battle against something. I can't take a day off because there is always something going on I can't miss. I don't know what to do.
Came home and fell asleep. I woke up at 10 to take my contacts out and brush my teeth. I feel better this morning than I usually feel in the mornings. Still I feel like shit and I need to go now. Bye!
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